The boys are both asleep, the husband is out with friends, the in-laws are safely tucked away in their basement suite, and I am taking a moment to renew an acquaintance with a long-ago friend - writing.
I have survived a week of career frustration, night battles over bedtime with a tenacious 3 year old, early pre-dawn mornings nursing a baby, meal preparation, laundry, grocery shopping, cuddling, reassuring, soothing, and fulfilling others. Now I need to find my own voice, my own pulse, my own skin.
Now where on earth did I put them?
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- Kate
- Late fall and early spring in Eastern Ontario can bring a cold, harsh, damp wind - the kind that gets into the marrow of your bones and keeps you feeling chilled and achy for hours after you are safe from its reach. It is especially brutal when it manages to wind around your hat or scarf, sneak into your ears, and cause an ache that defies all remedies but time and warmth. I find at times trying to balance being an executive, wife, mother, daughter, friend, and decent human to be like trying to keep that wind from getting into my ears and causing me pain - no matter what I try, no matter how I prepare, somehow I find my accessories and plans come up short. This blog is my space to try yet again to push that wind away, to alter its patterns, and to invite comment from those who manage to find the balance that eludes me still.
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Welcome to the blogging world, Kate! I hope you find the space you've created as comforting and rewarding as I have found mine to be. I've had my site for about seven months. I can relate to your feeling of not being able to handle it all, and to the sense of bleakness you seem to feel. No answers from my end, though; the balance that eludes you also eludes me. I think it's important to write about the experience, though, if you have the urge to do so. Writing has helped me feel a little more in touch with myself as I go along . . . .
ReplyDeleteGood luck, and I hope the wind is getting warmer in your neck of the woods!
Eva,
ReplyDeleteThanks for the interest and the post. I will see how this goes. Balance may be over-rated, but this experience of being a twice-over mom, wife, daughter, daughter-in-law and "high-powered executive" is right now tough water to navigate, and I often find I am no longer sure who I am, who I was, or who I am becoming. And often times it seems other see me as falling short in one of these identities. I'm looking forward to seeing who I turn out to be.